Tuesday 4 December 2012

MY SHARE OF FRAGRANCE





Nita looked at the shriveled flowers of Rajnigandha and then glanced at the windowpane. Raindrops were trying to peep in to her cozy room. She was alone. It has been seven years, that day was not different from today.
That day she had gone to the market. It was sweaty and sticky. The rains were not yet out of the clouds. Nita was busy looking for fresh potatoes. Different shades were mixing up in her mind. She was lost in another world, searching for some soothing moment. Someone pulled her dupatta, little irritated she looked back. It was a street kid, holding a bunch of Rajnigandha; the kid looked at here with dry eyes. As if those eyes were scared to dream.  There was no reason but she bought the bunch of flowers and returned home. Her husband gave her a puzzled look. He asked,” what made you buy this? What about my aloo chips?” She looked at him with dry eyes. He left. She sat near the window with a cup of coffee and those flowers. It started raining. She was trying to smell the rain and was looking at the flowers. With every drop of rain she was taking a step backward. It happened few days ago.

She always saw Vedant at the book shop, sitting at the right side corner table. She often went to the book shop and every time that right side corner looked the same. This monotonous man amazed her. One day she happened to reach early and when he came he was lost in search of his own corner. Nita smiled and got up. She heart the monotonous man for the first time,” please, continue your work, I will come tomorrow”. Before she could utter anything he left. The next day she couldn’t understand how and why but she was again at his corner before him. There he arrived to get settled in his corner. And before he leaves suddenly Nita told him to take his corner. With no reason she added,” would you mind if I share this corner with you?”
He looked at her and his eyes spoke, since then Nita sat there every day.
    At that time Nita was twenty something and he must be in his thirties. Vedant’s hair was usually undone; his eyes spoke the most as if looking for someone who could hear them. He was tall, broad shouldered. Dusky Nita wanted to touch life with her long fingers.
         Days passed and that silent, right side corner started chirping.  Both shared cup of coffee, and now Nita too had liking for black coffee. Vedant lived alone with his son and came to the bookshop after dropping him to school. He used to write for a magazine online and he enjoyed music.  He was still getting adjusted with newness of the town.  He loved reading Nita’s poems aloud and enjoyed finding mistakes in them. Nita was drowning in those deep eyes day by day. One day she didn’t come and the coffee cup was not emptied.
       It was raining when Vedant saw Nita running towards him in the bookshop street. Her marriage was to take place in next few weeks. She was getting married to the man her parents found perfect for her. The rains suddenly stopped and sky was dry. The fragrance of the rain filled their hearts and Vedant kept looking at the rainy eyes of Nita.
   
Once the ceremonies were over Nita came to the bookshop and shared a cup of black coffee with Vedant. She had nothing to say. Vedant spoke something which sounded like,”The coffee tastes better today. I never knew that I will miss you. But be happy.”
On that day they went for a quiet walk, holding hands, passing warmth to each other, knowing nothing.  It was drizzling again. Nita was feeling cold. They stood aside. Vedant pulled her, the embrace was tight.  Nita didn’t leave him. She closed her eyes tightly, as the moment was freezing in her. She was filled with something.
After few days she again went to the bookshop but that corner was empty and it gave a feel that it will never chirp again.

It has been seven long years. She kept reading Vedant online but never tried to reach him. Because she always felt that he was within her breath. She still smelled that secure deep breath around in the aura that covered her.
She looked at the seven years’ fresh dryness of Rajnigandha, looked out of the window and sipped her black coffee.

Chirantana Bhatt

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